I find myself going back to this dating site just searching around. I wonder if I'm ever going to be able to find someone worth my time. I try every day to not think about her and how she is finally happy with someone else. I am happy she is happy, and my anger isn't so much about how it's not with me, just the fact it happened so fast and I had to find out throug facebook. Just like all the rest of her friends. Most of which didn't even know she was gay. I just thought I was better than that. I thought I meant more to her but I guess my thoughts aren't what they should be. I wonder if I should even continue thinking anymore or if I should just give up. I don't want to but I don't know what else to do.
I've been hanging out with some friends and there's definitely some thing there, but I don't know if its something that should be acted upon or not. Age and siuations pose problems in a few cases. Its not something that's terribly inappropriate but its still leading to uncertainty. I remember when I was in one of the situations where I'm in love but not allowed to be with the girl. I can't give advice and say give up and move on, because if you have the slightest chance to be with them, you should never let go of them. Ever. Until that day comes where they move away and you'll never see them again. Then you should let go, just to be sane, just to be able to live.
And for another situation, if they cheat once, it'll probably happen again. I can't say drop them the first time without giving them a chance, but my goodness, I hope it doesn't happen again. Not all people are the same, but pretty close to it. On the other hand, if they're jealous of me being around you, and I've never even met them, there's some way they know something about me, and that something is probably mixed with atleast slight feelings you have towards me. I'm not being conceited, but its known by others and is slighty obvious when I'm around. Its fine though....
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