Taylor Radio Ft. L5 - Stand By Me

Im not sure why but my computer just shut itself down.

It worries me that there was a reason it did this, but I'm obviously thankful it did. It gave me a message that something might be dangerous and needed to be shut down. I don't know what might be dangerous but lets just hope it doesn't do that again.

New setup

This new setup is amazing. Absolutely amazing. I normally don't care about anything like this, but I'm not going to lie. I had uninstalled the old blogger because I wasn't using it enough/ it didn't have too many options on the application.  This one however, cathes my attention. I finally got a tumblr and love it, even though it's annoying as hell to reblog somethig and then have to scroll to the very botton again. ( or wherever I was ) we will see where this application takes me, and if I start to find people on here/follow them. We will se.

For now, it's back to work for me!  I seriously work way too much and it's starting to make me crazy!!! I've been singing at work all day like it's my fricked profession.... I swear I can acuallu sing well though!!! 

Everything changes SO DRASTICALLY and sometimes its for the better. I'm able to look at your posts and see her name and not mine and be okay with it.

ok this has everything to do with the fact that I've been able to move on myself and find happiness again.
but then BOOM it comes at me like nothing else I ever thought would come at me. I understand, just like I understand everything all the time. but God Damn it sucks!!! I don't know what I did to always be in something like this. I don't know why I always hang on also.

moods have changed drastically

I didn't believe it when I saw it, just three weeks ago. Everything I had be so strong about, fought for and asked for, it was now for someone else. Go away for one week and come back with your heart full again. Full of emotion and feeling, no hurt or pain. I'm happy for you, I really am.

You say " you wouldn't understand " how it came to be in just one week. Yes, it was a few more weeks than one, but when I fell in love with you, I was there, right? I was part of something brand new with someone I never met before then, I can understand my own situation, so why not this one? Truth is, I do understand, far too well. Just like I understood everything else you were going through that I got involved in. I understand things before you do, and it kills me to have you so blinded by someone to not understand what I do, until they leave you for a man....

Well guess what... I've done it too. I've let go of my problems in the past, I've allowed myself to accept the future for what it is, I've become happier than I have been in a long, long time. I've built something that's indescribable and amazing, something I never want to let go of. I've mentioned you and what I felt for you, even how it got there. I'm using what I learned from my relationship with you to better myself and make the best out of this new ship, shall I say. I'm going to set sail off the shore of sorrow and sail into the unknown, letting all my insecurities float until they're captured by something magical.

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Dating and loving and kissing and holding hands are all ways that we learn about ourselves, and how those selves relate to other people.

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My Family

Is crazy. No matter what, there's always a friggin argument about something. I've been on vacation with them the past week... and its been something not out of the ordinary that's for sure! Every day is something different. It just makes me want to move out more and more. I want to start my own life with my own family sooner than later. I know this isn't possible though, seeing how I'm turning 23 on Monday, far too young to have my own family. Other than my age, I still have two more years of school to put myself through. I wanted to earn at least three thousand this summer to pay off last semester and go back in the fall, but that simply wasn't going to happen. I have to drive at least half an hour every morning and then again every evening to get out to Waltham to my jobs. That's at least seven hours of driving a week for work, never mind when I go to a friends house that's at least 45 minites away. I know my lifestyle costs more than I can afford, but it's the least I can do for myself since I've worked almost everyday of my life since I was 14... now if only I had something to show for my hard word other than ex girlfriends closets and a new phone...

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