so I just looked at the page numbers.. I'm on 1113... I guess I had 200 more pages not just 100....(1215)


its not 107... I'm done.

time for bed!!

it's 1202... I'm on page 75 of 100... I'm SO TIRED

feel so much  better after going upstairs.... now back to my chapter summaries... think I can do 100 pages in 20 minutes? I think not...

why is it that every time I come back downstairs and get settled in again, I have to go to the bathroom...back upstairs...

also... why do people use this formspring thing to be rude to people? If you want to know something, ask it.. that's fine. But don't ignore my question back to you and then continue going on about how we haven't talked in a while because I raped you.. that's not funny.. and it never happened.

tomorrow I'm going to try and start a diet.. I should be 12 lbs lighter than I currently am... im going to wake up and go for a run if it's nice out... idc what I wear... that's always usually the problem. It needs to stop being an excuse (cause thats really what it is)
I have work at 1... so afterward I'm going to swim.. or just in between work and Kartwheels like I did last week.. that was a good half an hour of swimming. I'm not going to try and breath on my right side though... I always intake water and it stops me. I need to be more proactive. Enough BSing things... ew Beth Sugarman... I saw her fb profile today.. it said for activities "D*** S******" Gross.

i dislike not having a desk of any sort... my body hurts way too much from sitting in my bed all the time trying to do homework and whatnot. I seriously either sit on my behind with my legs straight out... causing my butt to KILL, or I cross my legs Criss Cross Apple Sauce style and then my hips get all out of place...its NOT okay!!!

I just cannot wait for school to be over and the Summer to start... Hopefully I can find something else to do for an income...

so I just opened up someone elses blog and music started playing. It was "You Make Me Smile".... for the entire song I thought it was part of the movie I was watching... Star Trek... I figured it out... Let's just say I'm pretty blond =)

why does every person I truly love leave me for someone else?

I really need to stop crying, and stop caring so much, and stop getting so attached to people. Especially when I know I shouldn't be getting attached to them but I still do, and then it ends up destroying my heart.
I feel the whole room spinning right now and I don't want to stop it. It's such the strangest feeling; not the first time it's felt like this though either. I don't know what I'm doing; neither does anyone else. What does that even mean? I know I'm making a fool out of myself, but that doesn't make me want to stop. You don't think I'm making a fool though... but you're still talking to other girls. So what is it?


AND why has my cat been playing with a FURBALL for the past two hours?!?!?! It's the weirdest thing..ever.

Procrastinating

Somehow when there is a LOT of work to be done, one always finds other things that are far less important to do instead. This is the first time all semester that I've actually had a bunch of things to do and I have absolutely no motivation to do anything.
Instead, I am poking around on blogs, playing Words with Friends on my new phone, and listening to the radio loudly while drinking a beer. Keep in mind I don't normally drink beer, but since I had a little get together this past weekend, there were extra drinks, so they must be drank. =) (This is the second night that I've just grabbed a beer or two..it's very not like me!)
As for Words with Friends... I've never been too good at scrabble... so I'm not sure what I was thinking when I decided to get an account here and show all my friends and any random person that I'm not any good... But it's worth the time.

Ugh I've really got to do this work.. I can't believe it's already 930...