I'm going out tonight, and as I get ready, I remember the good old times at camp. It feels weird to already be, well, ready for the evening... much different than waiting until 930 to get shit done haha.
New Years is right around the corner, literally. in 27 hours and 27 minutes haha it'll be a new year. I hope to get it started off on the right foot!!!
ps, I'm falling more in love with her every single day.... lets see where this goes!
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Friday, December 24, 2010
Christmas Eve
It's Christmas Eve, and boy does it not feel like it! There's a little snow on the ground, but that's about it. This year has been a very busy year, and it's weird that it's almost over. Tonight shall be interesting, seeing as my ex girlfriend is spending the evening in order to celebrate Christmas with my family. Usually when we talk, we fight; I told her I wouldn't fight this weekend with her. Let's see how it goes, now that I know my brother told her that last weekend, my new (soon to be) girlfriend was here for the night from New York, and was decorating the tree with us. I'm surprised she didn't say anything to me about that. She usually always does, even though we aren't dating anymore, and it doesn't matter what I do with my life.
Her and my brother seem to get along quite well though, which is unlike him and I that past two nights. This is a great holiday season, but all I've felt is unwanted. Two nights in a row, he has screamed at me and told me that if it weren't for me, the family wouldn't be in a fight "right now". He threatened to stab me, and told me that if I wasn't moved out in one week, he was going to throw all my belonging out on the street. It's ridiculous that he is only 16 years old and saying things like that to me. I really can't stay in this house for much longer.
I decided that this semester, which starts at a new school in three weeks, I am going to stay busy and earn money by getting back into the waitress picture. I think I'm going to apply to a restaurant down the street from where I live. I have been in the restaurant business since I was 15 years old, and I've always made good money. I don't know how I let myself not work in a restaurant this past year and a half. Worst Mistake Ever. Ha ha.
For now, I have got to get packing for this lovely weekend that I am sure will be amazing. =) I've got two little surprises planned, along with a great gift that I really hope Brittany likes. =) It hasn't really hit me that we are actually trying this relationship thing out. It's been way too long since we met, and way too long since we were together. I hope that 2011 brings a lovely relationship that lasts a lifetime, literally.
Her and my brother seem to get along quite well though, which is unlike him and I that past two nights. This is a great holiday season, but all I've felt is unwanted. Two nights in a row, he has screamed at me and told me that if it weren't for me, the family wouldn't be in a fight "right now". He threatened to stab me, and told me that if I wasn't moved out in one week, he was going to throw all my belonging out on the street. It's ridiculous that he is only 16 years old and saying things like that to me. I really can't stay in this house for much longer.
I decided that this semester, which starts at a new school in three weeks, I am going to stay busy and earn money by getting back into the waitress picture. I think I'm going to apply to a restaurant down the street from where I live. I have been in the restaurant business since I was 15 years old, and I've always made good money. I don't know how I let myself not work in a restaurant this past year and a half. Worst Mistake Ever. Ha ha.
For now, I have got to get packing for this lovely weekend that I am sure will be amazing. =) I've got two little surprises planned, along with a great gift that I really hope Brittany likes. =) It hasn't really hit me that we are actually trying this relationship thing out. It's been way too long since we met, and way too long since we were together. I hope that 2011 brings a lovely relationship that lasts a lifetime, literally.
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Feeling Left Out
This time is about being together and being a family, putting things aside for once. These past two nights have been a living hell. Everything that I do, I somehow end up being yelled at. What makes it worse is that I've been yelled at by my younger brother. How is it possible that two nights in a row, I've been told to get out of my house. I know I'm old enough to have my own place, but I'm really not. I still have two years at least of school left, and I work extremely hard. This past semester, being my last semester before obtaining my Associates Degree, I have had two jobs, full time school, homework, and student teaching 12 hours a week. I have not been home any night before 8pm, and am up early every single morning, even on the weekends. But still through all of this, I am getting straight A's, and paying everything by my self. I just don't see how I'm doing "nothing." Ugh. I need a place to myself. I obviously also need a better paying job. Let's see how this goes....
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